| Forgiveness |
[Nov. 10th, 2009|10:00 am] |
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Some things should be forgiven and forgotten. Some should be forgiven. And some should be neither forgiven nor forgotten. The trick is to tell which is which. |
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| Question-Looking for Answers from Those Who Read This |
[Oct. 31st, 2009|01:53 pm] |
In your life, if you had been close to someone for a long time, and then they did something quite awful to you, would you consider forgiving them (months later), not because they had asked for forgiveness, but simply because you missed having them in your life? Why or why not?
For most of you, the person I am considering probably isn't the person you think it is. I'm not mentioning who because A: many of you don't know them, and B: I want your opinion without your knowing what I might have said about the issue. |
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| Thinking... |
[Oct. 5th, 2009|12:16 am] |
I've done a lot of thinking over the past few months. Who do I want to be? How do I get there? Who am I now? And how do I not hate that person, while realizing that there are things I want to change? I've come up with some answers, and I've made some progress. I still have a long way to go.
One of the things I've been thinking about is the fact that I'm single. Once I got over the initial misery, I started trying to change myself, and I decided that being single was great and I loved it. This was very shortly followed by deciding that I was lonely and I hated it. This was followed by a short period of dating, and back to singledom. I've come to the conclusion that I don't like being single. I've also come to the conclusion that it's probably good for me. And I'm starting to be ok with holding both of those ideas in my head. Just because I think it might be good for me doesn't mean I have to love it and it doesn't mean that I can't try to find someone, should the right someone come along. |
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| Law Professor quote of the day |
[Sep. 10th, 2009|10:06 am] |
...and now we have a capuchin monkey. Who will do something you didn't expect.
Why are we getting a capuchin monkey when I didn't even know those were allowed in court? |
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| Rant |
[Jul. 5th, 2009|11:29 am] |
I am bitter. And I'm angry. And I want things to go back to the way they were. I'm tired of losing people. I want my grandparents back, who died within 4 months of each other. I want back the three who did things that I can't forgive. I want the one who I already know won't give me what I'm looking for, because I think he can also give me something that's good for me. But that would involve giving up what I'm looking for. And now my anger is expanding to those who call themselves friends, but don't call. I'm tired of being the one to always reach out; I'm tired of people assuring me they would love to see me, but never accepting the plans I try to make. Not unreasonably, I think, I conclude that they don't actually want to see me.
Most of all, though, I'm angry at myself. I'm angry that I want those three back in my life, despite the things they've done that I can't and shouldn't forgive. I'm angry that I'm not the person I want to be, not productive, not studious, not disciplined. And I know that I'd be happier if was those things. I'd have more pride in myself, and wouldn't need to try to get my self-worth from my friends.
I'm pretty sure that none of you who are reading this are in the first or second category. Some of you may be in the third. To those people, I'm sorry, because my anger mainly stems from those first three. I don't think I realized until today how angry I still am about them, and that perhaps, that's ok. |
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| KWDS |
[Jun. 30th, 2009|10:16 am] |
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I might be able to go to Known World Dance! It's kind of last minute, but we'll see! |
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| Now I'm truly done with law school for the year |
[May. 18th, 2009|05:06 pm] |
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Although finals were about two weeks ago, I still had one more large project for the year: the writing competition for the law school journals. I finished them up, handed them in with a whole ten minutes to spare, and now I am gloriously DONE!!! I have a 6 days until I leave for Philly for the summer, so if you want to get together, I am wonderfully and fantastically free. |
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| Finals |
[Apr. 21st, 2009|08:49 pm] |
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They start one week from today. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 12th, 2009|07:07 pm] |
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Prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. |
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| Law School update |
[Apr. 5th, 2009|02:43 pm] |
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I just found out that I got into the Innocence Clinic for next year. Yay! That means that I'll be investigating real cases where people have been convicted of serious crimes, and if it seems like they are actually innocent (maybe new DNA tests or something), we try to get them freed. It sounds really fascinating, and I can't wait to actually do something, instead of just sit in class. |
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| This past weekend... |
[Mar. 26th, 2009|10:43 am] |
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...was quite horrible. My grandfather died on Saturday. My family went to go see my grandmother, who is in a nursing home, on Sunday. She has severe dementia of some sort. She didn't ask about my grandfather (her husband), so we didn't tell her. She didn't recognize me or any of her other grandchildren. My oldest brother couldn't come to my grandfather's funeral because he was in a motorcycle accident. He'll be ok, but he broke both hands, both wrists, and his left elbow. He had to have surgery to have pins put in his left arm. The funeral was on Monday, and was depressing, as funerals usually are. I'm back at school now, though, and life is more or less back to normal. |
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| Comment of the Day |
[Mar. 4th, 2009|09:55 pm] |
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...and then the law rolls over, puts all four legs in the air, and says "I love you, rub my tummy." |
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| Party |
[Feb. 8th, 2009|04:48 pm] |
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I had lots of fun throwing a party last night. To all of you who came, I hope you had a great time. To all of you who couldn't make it, I missed you and I hope you'll be able to come the next time. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 1st, 2009|11:18 am] |
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I finished the game Longest Journey! Totally awesome game. Of course, it would probably be better if I could proudly announce that I'd finished my summer job applications, but hey, I'll take my sense of accomplishment where I can get it. |
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| Summer jobs... |
[Jan. 28th, 2009|05:54 pm] |
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Words! Need words! I am trying to write cover letters that make me sound brilliant, but the words, they flee from me. |
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| Salami and The Nibbler |
[Jan. 27th, 2009|09:46 am] |
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These are apparently negotiation tactics. That's certainly not what I thought of when I was doing the reading though... |
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| Weird dreams |
[Jan. 22nd, 2009|05:59 pm] |
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Vampire goth cats. That is all. |
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[Jan. 19th, 2009|08:46 pm] |
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It wasn't true. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 17th, 2009|02:51 am] |
This can't be true.
ETA: When I posted this at 3:30 in the morning, I didn't quite realize how much it would concern people. No one is dead, ill, or hurt, I am not flunking out of school (to the best of my knowledge), and I am not in any sort of legal or financial trouble. |
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| Bed!!! |
[Jan. 11th, 2009|08:48 pm] |
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I bought a bed today. I was resigned to getting a bed that was just ok, since really comfortable beds all seemed way out of my price range. But I hauled my ass out to Canton, because Gardner-White was having a sale, and I bought the most comfy bed, and it gets delivered tomorrow! Yay!!! I may never get out of bed again.... |
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